Drops of Sunshine

The earth laughs in flowers
— Ralph Waldo Emerson

My mother always loved yellow. Today was beautiful and all I could think of was my mother. It was the sunlight, the warmth, the flowers, the sea of green speckled with drops of sunshine. It made me happy. 

I've always hated my tummy. It is soft, scarred, spotted, and ugly. Today I wore a crop top that showed it off to the world. It took me half an hour to muster the courage to step outside. I pulled at the hem, fidgeted. God forbid anyone catch a glimpse of my 'biggest flaw' or focus on the spots on my chest. I felt exposed, vulnerable.

But as scared as I was of the stares and the expose stretch marks, I chose the drops of sunshine